“Test me, LORD, and try me, examine my heart and my mind;” Psalm 26:2. Sometimes I will read through the Psalms and try to make it like a prayer, but when I come to verse one, and verse two which is mentioned above, it is a tough pill to swallow. Often times I hesitate, because I know that I am not perfect, I make mistakes every single day. I know that in the past I have done things with the wrong intent. It is only because of Christ that my sins are forgiven by God. It is only by Christ that I can have a relationship with God based on love and not on dread. From my view it was brave of David to ask God to test him, but I also want to have that bravery. I do my best to be open to God, but I want to be able to open up to Him more. I want God take me outside of my comfort zone, so that my faith in Him will grow, my trust, and my Love for Him will grow. I tend to try to hold onto my comfort zone, often because of fear and pride, I want to learn to let go and give in to God. I want to be open completely to His will, so that in every action I will have acted with a righteous intent. I want God to be able to test me, to try me, to examine my heart and mind and be pleased. I know that I will never be perfect on earth, it is impossible, but I want to follow the statutes of God with all my being. I want to grow in Him and live for Him more and more each day because time is short. Even if Christ came one hundred years from now and I go to heaven by way of the grave, my time on earth will still be short in light of eternity. I choose to follow Jesus, I want to give Him my life and follow Him with all of my heart. I want to be more scared of not sharing the gospel than I am of what others may think. I want to throw away all of my pride for the glory of God, because without Him, I would have no hope for after my lifetime. When I die, I don’t care if someone can identify me by archery, or by being a decent guy, I want somebody to go, “Hey, wasn’t that the guy that preached a lot,” or, “I didn’t remember his name but I remember he had a love for God like no one else I’ve seen.” That is my goal, I want for God to look at me when I get to heaven, and say, “Well done My good and faithful servant” I want Him to examine my heart and mind and think, “Yep, that’s my boy!” God Bless!
